Happy Birthday Ed!

March 28, 2014 would have been Ed's 68th birthday. 

We used to celebrate with a cake and ice cream, maybe a meal, and some gifts. 

Ed was always teasing me that I was trying to 'catch up' with him when I had my birthday a couple of weeks before his, and I'd tease back that he would have a birthday to stay just ahead of me.

Most of the time, we would celebrate his birthday and Jessica's birthday together, as they were only one day a part. He would tease her and call her his 'girlfriend'. 

I am thankful to God that Ed got to celebrate 64 birthdays. Now, he celebrates in Heaven. I cannot even imagine how wonderful that must be!

Almost 4 years...

Mama and Ed. Early 80's I believe.

It has been almost four years since Ed, my step dad died from a cancerous brain tumor. 

Four years ago, I didn't think I would ever get over this. I was right.

But time does bring some healing with it.

This past year has been very hard for me, but when I compare it to what he went through, my 'bad year' was a piece of cake.

When I think of Ed, I think of all the good things he did, what a good person he was, how no one has an unkind word to say about him. And I am happy.

I am happy to have had him for my step dad. I am happy he got to live a pretty long life, though each year I find myself saying, he died so young. I am happy he was 'saved'. I am happy to have reminders in my home of him. I am happy to see the cardinals which make me feel like he is sending good messages. I am happy for my certainty of where he is now.

It has been almost four years since Ed left us. He left us, and yet, he is still here.